
"I know. I can't say it"
Do you have Aphasia (ah-fay-zhuh)?
Yhea, well 16 months ago I did not no what Aphasia was, Now I know, I know it for sure!
Now I know you know I had a stroke. At 46. What I did not know was that I would have Aphasia for months on end.
It is like waiting for the movie to start, you have gone thru your Popcorn and your Soda and you are still waiting, waiting for the movie to start, what you did not realize was it might be three Quarters till it is done, then you have have to wait for distribution. You are going to be waiting awhile.
Lets see Aphasia gives you this:
With aphasia people have difficulty communicating.
Well yes, your mind is muddlin some, it takes time to get thru this, I would say I am at about 90% good, 10% bad.
Aphasia can be a result of a stroke or head injury. Aphasia is DIFFERENT for everyone.
Oh great, "different for everyone", oh dog!
Some people have a lot of difficulty finding words. This is very common with aphasia.
This is getting better and better.
"I know. I just can't say it."
Well yeah, I know it but I can not say it. It is frustrating.
Some people have difficulty understanding words. "Pardon me?"
Yup, it is possible, you have to take the time to rephrase it.
Aphasia affects the whole family. Everyone learns new ways to communicate.
Yes, yes, I have a loving family, I could not make it without them.
It takes a lot of courage to live with aphasia.
Well yes it does, but, what else are you going to do? You have to get up every morning and make the best of it, even if it is the worst of it, you have to make it better, really it is all you can do.
Believe me, after 16 month of this I really want to scream. But it would not do any good. You just have to make Aphasia better each day. Some days it is good, some days it is bad. Everyday I look for something, I mean the Stroke is not over, not by a long shot, I look for something I have not scene before. Cherished it. Make me one with it. It is all I can do.