Prozac

I recall everything.

I recall nothing.

Which is it?

More and more I recall everything with moments of nothing.

I guess I should be grateful not to do this when I am 68. I am 48. I went under the Stroke at Feb 2nd 2007, I was 46. I mean good dog! At 68 I would be washed up, better give me a grave and sit me in it.

Ok, so I have plaque coursing through my veins. I suppose I got this from Bill, my father. I got the Blood Pressures from Joan, my mother. Neither of my siblings have this, not Nick at 62, not Steve at 60, not Dave at 55. Go figure! All of them, other that Steve, have got Lipitor from there Doc. I to have this and :

Lovastatin

Nasasin

Diovan

Aspirin

Prozac

Everything but the Prozac I needed for my Elevated BP and my Cholesterol.

The Prozac I got from the Stroke.

My lingo went south, it was fried.

I felt OK for around eight months, then I started down the long road of depression, I could not help it. I had the "selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI) class" Which means, nothing would work for me. Unless I started on the Prozac.

Prozac in popular culture

Because of its wide appeal as a popular anti-depressant, Prozac has had numerous references to it in popular culture, including many books, movies, and songs. The autobiographical book Prozac Nation was authored in 1994 by Elizabeth Wurtzel; it was turned into a movie of the same name, Prozac Nation, in 2001, starring Christina Ricci. A 1993 book, Listening to Prozac, was a generally critical look at Prozac and its side effects. Another book, Talking Back to Prozac, also focuses on Prozac side effects.

Vanilla Ice has a song called "Prozac." After having the drug prescribed for her, Cheryl Wheeler wrote and recorded a song called, "Is It Peace, Or Is It Prozac?" The British band Killing Joke has a song called "Prozac People." Rap artist Jay-Z makes reference to Prozac in his song "Nigga What, Nigga Who."

Bowling For Soup refer to Prozac in the line "one Prozac a day" in the song "1985".

A famous French record label called "Pro-Zak Trax" was created in 1994, possibly earlier. Their music style is mostly deep house music.

Prozac helped me.

It got my Brain firing again.

So it was the stroke which brought on the Prozac. I was happy long before the stroke. And will be happy again after the Prozac is done.

Now it is the blasé I feel from time to time, that and the Akathisisa ("constant pacing, purposeless movements of the feet and legs, and marked anxiety,") and the sexual dysfunction ( I am libido less.) I can take all these things for the lingo. Let me tell you about that.

You can see the languages center of by Brain was fried. Now I recalled everything, I could not make since from it, but I recalled everything. If that is to be understood. I new Kim ( my wife ), Dylan (my son) and Savannah (my daughter), everything about them. But as it was I could witness each thing they did. And lingo-wise I could not put the picture together, I could see them , lets say reading from a book. After they were done with it. I could not recall a single thing. I new it - but I didn't know it. So after 18 months of this, 18 months! This is about 5% of my Adult Life. 18 months of this I can read : Wired, Rolling Stone, News Papers, Google News etc. It is getting better. Now the books, the books I use to read in an afternoon, the books just leave me, well, who cares! And the movies I use to watch, who cares! It is funny I can watch funny stuff, Knocked Out gives me a roll each time. I went to see Wanted with Kim, and was floored when she came out of it raving about it. Huh? Raving about it? It was for all the glamour and style that went in to Wanted, I was left with nothing, I saw it, experienced it, my did not "take in" any of it.