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Blood Test

My Blood Test came in.

Cholesterol 162 (200 is the desirable)

LDL Cholesterol 97 ( 100 is Optimal)

Blood Pressure 120/68 (Diovan...it is what Joan used for her blood pressure towards the end)

Toot Sweet!

Now I have to get my weight down to the 210 stage, I am 255 now, which has something to do with the slow down via the Prozac, which I should be off come January.

End the end, I will have been on the Strokism 23 months, come January.....I think that would be enough.....what can you do.......just laugh and be on with it......

My Aphasia is getting better, that is, I am having less trouble with it, this is good news.

I still can not read a book. Which I did prior to the Prozac. I get about 20 odd pages into it and just give up. Hopefully I will get into the books again without the Prozac.

It Feels Great!

So be it. It is really something that I feel this good, it is unbelievable. Halla-Dog! Of course it could all go away buy I have a feeling we shall keep the goodness, goodly, good-able, good gracious. It is remarkable to me how just a month ago I felt pretty good, was still in my strokism, today the stroke is mile behind me, and it feels great.

Oh yhea, I am an Atheists....

AMERICAN ATHEISTS has been the premier organization laboring for the civil liberties of Atheists, and the total, absolute separation of government and religion. It was born out of a court case begun in 1959 by the Murray family which challenged prayer recitation in the public schools. That case – Murray v. Curlett – was a landmark in American jurisprudence on behalf of our First Amendment rights. It began:


"Your petitioners are Atheists, and they define their lifestyle as follows. An Atheist loves himself and his fellow man instead of a god. An Atheist accepts that heaven is something for which we should work now – here on earth – for all men together to enjoy. An Atheist accepts that he can get no help through prayer, but that he must find in himself the inner conviction and strength to meet life, to grapple with it, to subdue it and to enjoy it. An Atheist accepts that only in a knowledge of himself and a knowledge of his fellow man can he find the understanding that will help lead to a life of fulfillment."

"He must find in himself the inner conviction and strength to meet life..."

Yes this is it. I totally have a feeling for those who have found god. It is real for them and they need it. To me, ever thing I have ever known is within my skin. I don't really know how else to put it. We are born alone, we die alone.

O won wow O

O won. It is if a weight has been lifted off of me. It is funny how O brings the party together. Which is insane. The "party together", which I guess is something. We shall see over 4 years or 8 years what O will bring us. It is enough we only have Bush in office for another 2 months. What can he bring in those 2 months, we have no way of knowing. The first 100 days of O will be something to see. It is odd for me to get the stroke behind me, while taking it with me....very odd indeed.

I recall it but do I remember it?

Every so often I think of something that I recall but do not remember. It has to do the Strokism. This morning it was Santa Barbara Dist. I ran a route there for eleven years. It was just at the start of the PC generation. We had an IBM then, got it from Nana and Papa Jack. As they were IBM-ers. It was a hoot. This was before there was a URL, you had to go every where with links. A picture took you about an hour to view. Anyway, this was, let’s see, 26 years ago. It was when cell phone we’re taking off. And beepers were the outrage. Good times! So, the Strokism, I recall a dream I had where SB Dist was in it. I went to them after the Stoke and confessed I needed a job right then. They gave it to me. So I was running a route again. It was really pretty weird. In fact I could do everything I should do and did not have to speak a word. I was dead tired by the time I got to the end of the day. Then I woke up.

Nada is as Nada does......

Well having a Stroke means you really need to watch it. Anything that leads to fuzziness in the biannual is for certain a Stroke! It is not as if you had you chest ripped open and a new heart in place and had the chest stitched back up. You can deal with that. A Stroke, of the Linguistics, is funny to begin with. I mean I had no paralyses and nothing that would call me out. Except I could not speak. I spoke, for what it was worth, it was bubbles. "Bubbles" meant I could grasp at the problem and be aware that I could solve it and then the "bubbles" went away. As if nothing was there to begin with. In fact I really got into the Zen portion of it. It to nothing at all. Nada. I could sit and be aware for hours on end : Nada is as Nada does. I could go the motions at work and in the end, get up and do it again the next day. I went on for months like this, 6 months when the SSRI (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor) hit me. Thank the Dog I am out of that. Now I am 21 months into this. And I feel, for what ever it is worth, fine now.

So this hit me, carotid artery, it really hit me in the last 6 or 7 months a feeling of pain. It would come on in a second and leave again. And in would not show up again for days or weeks on end and there it would be again - pain. This Monday (27 of Oct) it really hit me again, it was fierce. So Dr. H said come on in. So I go in for the scan on Friday. We shall see what we can see. It will likely be nothing. I did in fact give the good Dr. H a plan for me getting off of Prozac. Which really, really helped me get through the SSRI (depression) . Now I have to wean off it, which should take me about 3 months.

It is funny, Rose said last Oct when we went to the Lane Farm Pumpkin Patch I do not recall it as such. I recall going there. But my speech was not ready then, and as such, I did not recall it. I was Nada. This Oct I should recall something. We will see won't we.

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